Category Archives: North America 2008-2012

My next surprise art show…coming to Tucson!

"Bear" oil on board 14x11 2010

Mural photo, santa fe, nm
“Mountain Ranges” 8x14ft mural acrylic on stucco 2008
“The Enchanted Ceremony” circa 8′ x 8′ acrylic on bus

Just found out about 1 hour ago that I was accepted in the 1st Annual Great American  Muralist Competition in Tucson, AZ from Sept 30-Oct 2, 2011.

This obviously is a huge deal for me on different levels.  I’ve visited Tucson several times since living in New Mexico, because I love the town, vibe and quirkiness.  Some say it’s kinda like Albuquerque.  But I actually lived there when I was just a baby, and maybe it’s had some kind of psychological effect on me ever since, and I always felt drawn to Tucson because of it.  Now I get to participate in what appears to be a HUGE competition.  I’ll be in a category known as the “Rising Star”, in which I’ll be competiting for a cash prize with muralists in my category.  After the mural is painted, it will be auctioned off to a special charity and the artist will also receive 50% of the proceeds.

I have to take a week off from my framing job in Albuquerque, so I will hopefully sell a few artworks, and here’s where you come in to support my latest, greatest venture.

  I’ll give you 20% savings off any available painting in my gallery for the month of September. Plus free shipping to anywhere in the USA.

 I will be posting more art as well, so keep stopping by.  I want to earn your respect by you purchasing one of my works, especially so I can afford this trip more.  I will constantly post my blogs about my art life  and you get to follow my progress and career.  This show means a lot to me and a lot of great things can come from this. 

Thanks you always for your support!

By the way, these paintings are the ones that got me in the show!

Overcoming the darkness of my creative being

It’s midnight as I’m writing this.  I just have a need to write at this hour.  Maybe it’s the silence of the hour, the calm darkness that spreads across New Mexico.  But one thing’s for certain.  It’s dark out there.  It’s also a bit dark in here.  This soul, this body, this mind.  If I were looking at darkness from a spiritual perspective, perhaps then everyone has a little darkness in them.  Just as joy, happiness and love exists in our human selves, so can darkness, gloom, sadness.  Maybe it’s a ying-yang thing.  Are we meant to have darkness and happiness and everything in between.  Is it normal?  Darkness can mean a lot of things to lots of people.  For myself, I use to fear the darkness because I always thought my life was falling apart, or someone was out to get me.  Or I was painting crappy paintings in dark, muted colors.  Kind of like those Turner style old English paintings, full of monochromatic or meloncholy moodness.

But if I were to look at my darkness right now, what does it show me?  I feel a bit constricted, where I live, what my past paintings are like.  As an artist, your past paintings define you up to this point, what your art is about.  I’ve been very proud of my art for the most part of 20+years.  I’ve been in over 30 exhibitions, traveled to the east coast twice last fall to do several art shows.  I guess it meant something, because I didn’t wish it would happen.  I MADE IT HAPPEN.  I don’t give myself enough credit, I can get pretty hard on myself.

if you don’t paint for 8 hours a day, then you’re just pretending to be an artist.

That’s the voice constantly going on in my head.  Pretty pathetic, huh?

I’m letting a little bit of light to combat the darkness these days though.  I still am aware there may always be darkness, but it’s up to me how much I want it to control my life.

I’m handing my life to the universe.  My way hasn’t worked very well.  So there’s my first big step to a happier existence.

My past art belongs in the past.  I must create art for today.  Because I have to.


The Art of the Breakup (pt. 2) – This isn’t brain salad surgery

Josh, age 3

Last time we met here, I introduced you to “The Art of the Breakup”.  Now, I would like to follow that up with a few provoking thoughts.  As artists, we are incredibly sensitive creatures.  Life imitates art, art imitates life.  We don’t know whom imitates whom, but we carry on like the warriors we are and attack our next creative venture like a primitive neanderthal.  So with that in mind my friends, we now journey to the center of our creative solar system.  What does it look like, what could it be?

It’s in your heart, dude

Nothing mystical here, sorry for the build-up, but I’m not telling you something you don’t already know my savages.  I’m a big believer that art imitates life and we are loyal followers to her magic, like a pied piper.  And we still don’t know where we’re going, do we?  Well that’s ok, neither do I.  If we knew the outcome of our journey, do you think we would radically change our present circumstances?  Maybe.  But if I had a choice between choosing your heart or your mind for life’s roadmap, well if someone was seriously asking me this, I would choose my heart.  The head’s role is to organize shit and make sense of life.  The heart’s role is to add soul and divine human potential to any situation.

The heart knows all, feels all, sees all.  People without a brain may relate to this, really.  But from my own life experience, my head has caused most of the trouble in my life.  I had made TONS of stupid decisions that has caused me loads of pain, financial debt, strained relationships.  It may in fact take a lifetime to recover. But the good news is that the heart doesn’t give a shit about it all!  Yes!  Salvation!  Light at the end of the tunnel!  Call it what you want, but the heart didn’t get you or I in all this trouble.  What is the heart’s role in this?

Unconditional love and salvation

It doesn’t care, criticize, condescend your ass, slap you in the face.  It knows two emotions the best – Bliss and Pain.  And many layers in between.  When you ask yourself how you feel, your heart will tell you.  Your head will try to sugarcoat or overthink your emotional state which will leave you more confused.  You can’t fool the heart, it’s an organ of love and truth.  It doesn’t like being in pain, that’s what causes heartbreak, or even heart attacks.  So my advice is don’t attack your heart.  Do what you can to feel good again.

  • paint a picture
  • take some photos
  • travel to new places
  • eat an exotic food
  • see a movie you never thought you would see in a million years
  • ask out that person, even if you’re a girl, shit it’s the 21st century, women-we want you to ask us out!!!
  • …Just a few, maybe you can tell me some more, I could use some advice too!

Remember that break-ups, or any painful situation is temporary.  Your head wants to make it feel it will last forever…FOREVER!  Tell your head once in a while to shut up.  Your heart will thank you for it.  Now here’s a poem I wrote several days ago, but I did it to help ease my pain.


Don’t know how I’m feeling

but the pressure’s got me kneeling

for a brand new day

please help me stay

on solid ground so I can

move around like a clown.

Pay attention to beats

of a temporary broken heart

it may not pay the bills

but it will help keep you smart.

Not in the mood to create

I heard that one before.

It’s time to call your gift

before the door is no more.

But through the window glass

I see your reflection in a cereal bowl

by your human imperfections

with rose-colored eyes

and a hazy soul.