There’s an old saying that the answers are found within if you look hard enough.  Maybe Buddha has something to do with it.  I’m not here to preach beliefs, just explain my experiences behind the work that I produce.  If I don’t produce a painting physically, as in the form of a finished canvas painting, then I have it first in my mind.  I’m always working things out in my mind and I can assure you that most of the things in my mind never end up exactly the way it ends up in the physical world.  That is because the creative process is unpredictable.  It’s unpredictable, scary, confusing, glorious.  It’s like a roller coaster ride and not knowing when it will stop.  If you don’t like roller coasters, perhaps riding the waves on a surfboard could be another analogy.  You’re enjoying the ride and not thinking about the destination.  That is also called “living in the moment”.  I have been through many of those moments as an artist.

I believe that embracing the living moment of now (nods to Eckart Tolle-read the “Power of Now”.  Great book) will produce breakthroughs.  It may even unleash the inner warrior inside you.  The one that still is primitive human that beholds certain traits for many ions.  Technology and the modern world has consumed us all, but the primitive inner warrior remains inside us, possibly very deep.

This latest painting below started as a self-portrait drawing, I haven’t done one in a while.  It was turning out good.  Not exactly my realistic facial features, but I can tell it was me.  I decided to transfer that to a painting.  3 primary colors and a white.  This was done on heavy watercolor paper by the way.  I was laying in the darker colors first and gradually went lighter and lighter.  The skin tones turned out much darker than I expected.  But I kept going with it, kept on the roller coaster ride.  When I finally finished, it was different than anything else I’ve done before.  Normally it would have taken weeks or months to do something like this, but I did the whole painting in about 2 hours.  I’m learning not to overwork the colors and pay more attention to the values.  Sometimes you do grow right before your eyes.  I don’t look at this painting as the final product, but the beginning of something.  Maybe it’s the next level, as artists aspire for.

Could it be once you tap that warrior, you have a better understanding of who you really are?

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‘Inner Warrior’ 9×12 oil on w/c paper